Monday, February 23, 2009
So I've been home for three whole weeks now and I'm feeling a little better about things. I don't know how long it will last. I only pray that God points me in the right direction. I think I'm doing what is right, but I still have concerns. I really hope we can make it, but I'm uncertain. On to other things...We've been sick at my house this last week or so. Avi just had her first stomach bug and of course I was a complete wreck about it. You know how that old stomach bug goes. If one has it you all end up with it...so you can imagine the lovely fun we've had at my house. Hopefully we are on the path to recovery. I haven't been doing too well with the whole weight loss journey. I have no self control. I had a plan, but just haven't put it into action. Anyone want to try and motivate me? Anyone? Please? Okay, okay I guess I'll just have to get off my behind and do it. I don't know how well it will work, but I certainly need to try. My weight is just too much. I'm at home now so I really have no excuse. If i could just lose a pound or two a week I would be so psyched. I just love to eat so much. Food is my addiction. When I quit smoking oh so many years ago I replaced that habit with food. To tell you the truth I'm not so sure I am doing any better for myself eating rather than smoking. Not that I'm going to start smoking to replace the food or anything, because I would probably end up smoking and overeating and then I would just be in a world of trouble. The thing is giving up cigarettes was much easier than trying to give up the foods I love, because with cigarettes you just stop completely....well I still have to eat and once you are eating it is hard to just quit at a point. I want to eat until I'm am full and uncomfortable.....I know I know..why would anyone want to be uncomfortable...heck I don't know but there is something comforting about that over fullness when you eat. It's quite ridiculous. I really don't sit and eat all day by any means. I just overeat when I do sit down to have a meal. I certainly could do without all the Sun-drop.....Lord this is Tennessee though...what kind of southern girl would I be if I didn't drink Sun-drop...lol...now I'm just being silly and rambling so I'll let ya'll get back to your lives. Oh yeah and I've added some video of Avi walking a little bit. Don't mind my husband without the shirt he couldn't possibly be in the house with a shirt on that would just be ridiculous!!!! LOL....don't pay me any mind!! Love to all!
Friday, February 13, 2009
Okay, well Laura was fussing at me for not keeping up with my blog so here goes.....Life is going kind of crazy right now. As a matter of fact everything has been turned kind of upside down on us. Derek has been forced to go to dayshift at his job, which would be supercool if we could afford it, but we cannot. To send all three of my kiddos to daycare it would cost me $240 a week. I only made $198 a week. So as I'm sure you can tell that would be really stupid. So suddenly I am a sahm. I have always wanted to be a stay at home mom, but I never really believed it would happen. I'm nervous. I'm scared. I truly believe though that this is the direction that God is sending me. I kept trying to find arrangements to keep my job and they kept falling through. My Mom told me that maybe someone was trying to tell me i needed to be home for a little while. As soon as she told me this I got on the computer and signed onto facebook....what do I see but a note that Tiffany Thompson Snyder wrote that was titled....It's Okay to Quit. Be Blessed.....I just sat there and laughed. I thought to myself...I get it....okay. I sat there and decided right there to quit trying to figure out what to do and just do what God was telling me to do. I don't know it might sound crazy to some, but I believe I'm where I'm supposed to be. Everybody just pray that everything works out for the best. I'm finding it a little difficult to adjust myself to being at home. I keep waiting for something that I'm supposed to do. Like how I wake up everyday and get ready for work...something like that, but it's just not there yet. I haven't quite found my niche. I sure I'll adjust soon though. Well lots of love to everyone. I'll try not to make it so long in between posts next time!!